The Power of Forgiveness & What Do You Wish For?

The Power of Forgiveness & What Do You Wish For?

I am here today to tell you a liitle something about myself because it has been laying heavy on my heart to share this. I am not ashamed to say the least that I was in prison for 10 years. I am not here to say that I am perfect for that isn't true! I just made some wrong choices in my life that caused me to stop and be still. Most of you know that I was blessed to be reunited with my son after 12 long years and then the worst hit when I got the call that he was murdered. I am still in the healing process and it is only by the Grace of God that I am able to move forward! Just recently I land upon an article about a second young man who turned himself in regarding to the shooting last December 22, 2010. Here I see now two young men that are 20 years old facing charges of First Degree Murder, Felony Murder, Asp. Aggr. Kidnapping, and Aggr. Assault. Truthfully, I do not wish these young men the worst! You may ask, "why?" "Are you nuts?" "Are you crazy, for these young men took your son's life?" HOLD ON!!! I can say that with Jesus in my life I am not the same person that I once was or use to be and I am able to say that I forgive these two young men and I pray for them daily. Whatever happens, happens for I trust in the Lord for He is the first Judge no matter what! Before I went to prison myself, I can say that I have said some awful things and also seen some awful things about prison that I would just Judge anyone that mantioned prison. To me then prison was and is for bad people and they are there for a reason and all were no good people. After my own experience in prison, I can say that I found Jesus christ as my Lord and Saviour! My whole life changed when I was in prison. I went in one way and I was determined to change and become someone different before walking out of that place. I did just that and still to this day I am struggling to do the will of the Lord in my life and unto others! I do not wish upon my worst enemy PRISON! I don't wish anyone to experience having a baby in PRISON! (That I also had to endure while locked up and watching my baby leave my arms 4 days after birth and to never see her again.) I do not wish anyone to go to PRISON for anything! Why? I was stripped from everything that I cared for and loved and not even knowing what was I going to face. It really hit me hard and the worst was calling hime every time, any time, and talking to my family....till one day they stop taking my calls! Their bill was rising and their lives were moving on....without me there with everyone! I loss family members as the time went on and it just hurts more when you can't go to the funeral and say your good byes and pay your respects! It wasn't as if the family forgot about me but the world doesn't stop just becas\use I was locked up. I am in a whole different world now away from my normal. I was limited in what I wanted to do and what I was allowed to keep in my personals. My freedom was none! I had to learn that my family loved me, that they had to still live their lives regardless of what was going on with me. I then started to learn to LOVE myself before anyone else. I had to learn to FORGIVE myself before I could sincerely FORGIVE someone else. I had to REPENT and know what the Lord wanted from me. Running back to God, my Father, Jesus Christ to get myself in order! Turning from old to new. Letting go of things in the past and moving forward. What a road I am on! This journey we call life!

Seeing our world fighting and hatred and all the things that our world is going through today is SAD! Prayer and trusting in the Lord that He touches someone that needs His guidance. That is about all that anyone can do today and prayer isn't just it...you have to also do what the Lord tells you to do as well. Obey Him and let Him guide your heart. Question yourself...what would you do, feel, or think if it was you that was caught and facing a prison sentence and everyone around you started to place judgement against you before you were in tried in court? Guilty or not, you are GUILTY in the eyes of the community! A lie is a lie! There is no great nor small about it! The list goes on and on but in the Bible it says that God FORGIVES us!?!? Do you doubt that of what God says that is TRUE and HE SAYS IT IS TRUE? His PROMISES in the Word says many things and here are we doubting God what He says to us, you and I? If He has FORGIVEN you, then it is done! You are FORGIVEN!! If He says you take me into your heart as a Saviour, then it is done! He lives within you as your SAVIOUR! If you are SAVED, then it is done! You are SAVED!! My favorite book is the 40 days Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren. I have read this book a many of times and always found something that applies to my life then and now. I recommend it to you to read it and pass it on to the next person in your life so that the Lord can move in theirs. Okay, life goes on and I hope that whatever you are doing that you think again about some key points and see are they the ways of Jesus or is it the flesh? I really wish the best for those two young men that took a young life! I know that in my heart that I will see mine in HEAVEN when that day comes and as of now I will continue to shine Jesus Love & Light through me unto others! I thank you for reading my story and what the Lord has laid upon my heart to yours!

Be blessed always is my prayer to you!!